Ryan Williams
I miss that feeling when I was younger. Being so overwhelmed by a girl by how beautiful she is and so out of your league that you’re just hoping you get to get a moment with her. You don’t expect anything - but can’t help get that huge buzz and rush of excitement when you think she might have glanced at you in a certain way. She’s older, so much more wiser. You put her on a huge pedestal - and that’s a good thing, because to you, she’s perfect. Life experience (or the lack of it) has kept you innocent from thinking about the worries; prejudice; imperfections and most of all, caution. It’s the only time you get to fall in love like you’ve never been hurt before. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks, because only you can see her true beauty and how precious she is. In that moment, she’s all that matters to you and you just really, really want to be a better person so you might be the right person for her. But it’s okay if you’re not, actually, it hurts like hell but you’re just glad she exists. It makes you so happy just thinking about her, you want to imagine what her life is like, what she thinks about, what makes her happy, what makes her sad. You start dreaming that you can be the warrior who can protect her from all the sadness in the world. I miss that feeling. It was so pure and so sweet. Life had so much meaning with the new sensation of butterflies, electricity, youth and young love. I wonder where along the way I lost having those feelings….and if i’ll ever get that tingling back. I really hope I do one day, and when that feeling comes back - i’ll know I won’t let her go.